to go or not to go...

i know i already blogged today but i just received an intriguing email from the married guy which i had mentioned in one of my latest posts...i googled him and turns out he is the owner of a really large international advertising company....wow if that is not an interesting coincidence because i study for a Bachelor's degree in international marketing and advertisement....interesting, interesting, interesting....
anyway he wants to meet and wants to know when and where...he offers to even book me a flight to his town (1st class ofcourse) and a room at the best hotel....i think for the first meeting i better should meet at my hometown, what do you think sugars? i mean if everything goes well i can go to him any time but for now better and safer that i stay here, right?

ok, i just wanted to quickly share with you guys....

love,
cute rebel*


*i think i am going to use this nick now....kind of like it cuz it suits me perfectly...:p

"you are so unbelievably cute"....

for heaven sakes i am tired of being cute....i mean puppies, kittens - yes, they are cute...but me...ugh, it's not like i have one of those baby faces....it's more like a doll face and my porcelain white skin doesn't help as well....you might ask why i am bringing this up?....well last weekend when i went to the club three guys with whom i danced said the same thing that i am cute and others have said it previously as well, and now even my potential SD said that.....grrrr

anyway i have finally a concrete date on which i am going to meet up with McSteamy....unfortunately it's at the beginning of January....ugh so far away....anyways we agreed on meeting here in my hometown...he will be staying at the best/fanciest hotel here...mm....that says a lot - like he is what he claims to be for example....BUT he said smth that disturbs be: "I will come in the middle of the week, and stay for one night in *** hotel. Hope you will join me there...." join him?!?!? oh no buddy, if you think that i am going to "get it on" already on our first date, you are terribly wrong....so the plan is that after finding out if we even connect in real life like we do through our emails, i might join him in his room for a drink or so if everything goes well, but nothing more....a real relationship or a SD/SB relationship but sex on the first date is a NO for me...I mean look at it as you want but in my opinion if you let him have you on the first date, you sort of loose the respect and power which you would have if you wouldn't let him get you so easily...don't get it wrong...i am not into games but still...i have my principles or rules as you might call them...

as for the other potentials....hm actually there hasn't been much of an activity so i will tell more when there actually is what to tell about...:p

so for now....bye bye from the "cute rebel".....hm i think i actually might like this nick...heh

hmm

so i haven't written for quite a while just because i have been really busy...unfortunately not with anything related to sugar life, well except for the gym lol....dunno why but have not received anything from McBudget which is really odd because i have no idea why...i mean we had developed a great connection and then it just stopped....he hasn't written anything for a week....so i guess he is out of the potential SD's list....

as for McSteamy...well things are doing good but he asked me to name the amount of the allowance which i would want to get....i really didn't know how much to ask and thought oh whatever and said 4000$ which now i understand that was too much just because we maybe won't be able to meet as often as wanted...but he was understanding and offered that he would give me somewhere around that sum before his vacation on january...oh i think i haven't mentioned about it....the thing is that on january i am free from studies and it's exactly when he is taking a vacation...doesn't it fit perfectly? anyway he said that if everything goes well he would love to take me with him on a tour around Europe....yay...i REALY hope everything will go well...although there would be a little problem - my mom....although we live in two different cities she still calls me at least three times a week...but if i will be somewhere in Europe she won't be able to get in touch with me, which means she might get the wrong idea like something bad has happened to me etc.....that's why i came up with an idea that i might say her that i have gotten myself a really rich boyfriend and later when the time comes i will tell her that he offers me a trip to dunno somewhere near to my country but somewhere where she can't reach me though....wouldn't be that far from truth actually....:D but she definitely would never understand or even accept the fact that her daughter is something even near a sugar baby, i think she wouldn't never talk to me again and i am really not joking.....so i have to lie...not that it would be the first time since i am quite a wild spirit and i had to get through teenage years partying without being caught...i am quite a good actress..:p

oh and apart from other new potentials there is one really potentially potential SD....quite an impressive net worth, polite and nice personality, lives near me....BUT......he is married...i have always had a really strict no cheating policy in my relationships so now i am in quite a controversy with myself....dunno....we'll see....

but for now i have to prepare for tomorrow's exam in law....ugh hate that subject, why the hell do students need to know the theory of law if they are studying marketing and advertisement?!?!

ugh.....so for now...bye ;)

so far so good....

so today i received a letter from McSteamy...he had been very busy for these last couple days so he wasn't able to reply....but basicly what he said in his letter was that he loved my photo which i sent him(ofcourse, i looked damn hot in it) and gave me loads of compliments...basicly he wants to know when and where i would like to meet him and "What would be my ideal arrangement?"...honestly i don't know what to say because i haven't confirmed anything with McBudget about next week and the holiday time.....

i am quite in a dilemma right now....like personally i like McSteamy and would love to spend the most time with him rather than with McBudget...but then again i really need money right now and can't afford to be egoistic about things like looks etc....i should more concentrate on the bigger allowance source....

today i thought quite a while about that if i should have more than one sugar daddy...i don't know if i could combine my studies with 2 sugar daddies...but still....wouldn't it be great if i could have the larger sum of money from McBudget and a smaller allowance from McSteamy with whom i would enjoy every minute of it...?

but actually i don't know these two men in person yet so can't judge if i would or wouldn't be able to enjoy their company....so far i think that McBudget has a really nice personality but as for McSteamy...he's hot....but from profession he is a psychiatrist...dunno how i could deal with that... lol

we'll see...ok i am really tired cuz i just came back from the gym where i did a really good job today....worked out like an animal....well i want to look my best so....but for now bye sugar community, I have to get my beauty sleep... :)

looks promising...

so on other sugar blogs i have noticed that they usually give their SDs nicknames which is actually more convenient.....so remember the guy who was my favourite one....the one who i was attracted to but not with the big budget...i think i might call him McSteamy (yeah just like in Grey's Anatomy)just because he really is hot.....although i don't know why but it has been quite quiet with him....last time we spoke we exchanged photos via emails...i mean i don't think my photo could be at fault cuz it was really hot but sophisticated as well(not like trashy, cheap hot etc)....previously he answered to my mails really fast no matter at what time i sent them....hm strange....but still hope it' s just because he is really busy cuz i would love him to be my SD...

and then there was the other potential SD with the really big budget...but without any attraction from my side...i will call him McBudget.....so he is currently on a business trip somewhere in south of Europe and wrote me a really long email which honestly swept me a little bit of my feet....i have to admit that his offers and everything of what he said sounded so damn tempting...i might wanna pay more attention to him i think....cuz well that would be one hell of an arrangement with him....in his last email he said that i should name the exact date and he would arrange it so that he could come to meet me here....i haven't decided yet but i think i will go with some day from the next week....

which means going to gym this week...i mean i want to look my very best for McBudget so that everything goes smooth and i maybe even might have found my basicly  main SD...wow that would be so great - to start new year as a real already spoiled SB.....sounds good...

ok, don't know if anybody is even reading this but if you are then stay tuned...i will definitely keep you updated on what i decide and how it goes... ;)

this is it...

                                                                                                                                                                          Ok, i have been exchanging some emails with potential SDs...but honestly i have tons of questions like where and how the first meeting should go, what to say and to do and what not...when should i start with talking about my needed allowance....on which date is it ok to have sex etc.....

i think i should choose a SD who has experience in this and could lead me into the sugar life...i am a quick learner so i will get around it really quickly...

now about the potential SDs....well there is one SD who is my favourite of all of the SDs who have written me so far...he is 33 years old and quite attractive if i may say so...i mean i actually am attracted to him because despite his age he keeps himself in a  really good shape....not that 33 is quite old but still...but ofcourse there is a catch....he isn't as wealthy as other potential SDs....although as long as he can afford "spoiling me" it's not my business how he manages his budget...

oh and there is this other candidate who is a lot wealthier but.......from appearance totally no attraction...although he seems like a nice, interesting person...just like a real sugar daddy...the type of man who would really take care of you in every way needed...

i think i could arrange my meetings somewhere between christmas and new year because i will definitely spend christmas with my family but new year's eve i actually could spend with my SD in one of the big cities of Europe...like Paris for example...mmm...that has always been one of my dreams to celebrate new year in Paris....uhh...that's one of the factors why i joined the sugar movement...it helps your dreams to come true!

p.s. as i know i could never tell all  of this "second life" of mine to any of my friends or family, i felt quite uneasy...but it changed when i recently met an old and really close friend of mine..she is most open-minded and down-to-earth person of all of my friends......so i decided if anyone could accept my decision about this and support me then it must be her...and i was right...not only she accepted my decision, she now wants to join as well....yey...i mean it feels so good to talk with somebody about this and if we both are going to do this then it would be so great to share my feelings/experiences with smb who's dealing with the same thing... :))

i am back as a sugar baby wannabe...

well i was gone for approximately a month.....that's because i was doubting my decision about all this escort or sugar baby/daddy thing.....I even have received couple messages on this sugar site called seeking arrangements.....when i looked it up on the internet it turned out to be the most popular and best site for sugar daddies and babies...it was even shown and discussed on Letterman's show as well as on ABC news....."interesting" i thought......

so i have now made up my mind...i will be doing this...but no escort or callgirl thing...i decided that it's just too low for me...i will try to go for being a sugar baby....ofcourse these so called mutually beneficial relationships include having sex as well but it's not like just lain sex and plain money....it's more like a relationship...the sugar daddy takes care of his baby and spoils/pampers her or whatever you might call it....

i guess for me the best ones will be who will want to go on trips together, spend time together on holidays etc....cuz i have studying to do for the university and the fact that i live in a country which isn't actually near to any of the big sugar daddy residences like norway, germany, france etc (from that you can figure out that i do live somewhere in europe)...

ok now i have edited my profile with what i am like and what am i looking for...uploaded 2 photos in which my face can't be seen....(just a precaution so that in any case i stay anonymous)

I am going to join the sugar family hopefully soon, so wish me luck....