this is it...

                                                                                                                                                                          Ok, i have been exchanging some emails with potential SDs...but honestly i have tons of questions like where and how the first meeting should go, what to say and to do and what not...when should i start with talking about my needed allowance....on which date is it ok to have sex etc.....

i think i should choose a SD who has experience in this and could lead me into the sugar life...i am a quick learner so i will get around it really quickly...

now about the potential SDs....well there is one SD who is my favourite of all of the SDs who have written me so far...he is 33 years old and quite attractive if i may say so...i mean i actually am attracted to him because despite his age he keeps himself in a  really good shape....not that 33 is quite old but still...but ofcourse there is a catch....he isn't as wealthy as other potential SDs....although as long as he can afford "spoiling me" it's not my business how he manages his budget...

oh and there is this other candidate who is a lot wealthier but.......from appearance totally no attraction...although he seems like a nice, interesting person...just like a real sugar daddy...the type of man who would really take care of you in every way needed...

i think i could arrange my meetings somewhere between christmas and new year because i will definitely spend christmas with my family but new year's eve i actually could spend with my SD in one of the big cities of Europe...like Paris for example...mmm...that has always been one of my dreams to celebrate new year in Paris....uhh...that's one of the factors why i joined the sugar movement...it helps your dreams to come true!

p.s. as i know i could never tell all  of this "second life" of mine to any of my friends or family, i felt quite uneasy...but it changed when i recently met an old and really close friend of mine..she is most open-minded and down-to-earth person of all of my friends......so i decided if anyone could accept my decision about this and support me then it must be her...and i was right...not only she accepted my decision, she now wants to join as well....yey...i mean it feels so good to talk with somebody about this and if we both are going to do this then it would be so great to share my feelings/experiences with smb who's dealing with the same thing... :))