Bali.......

so I am back from Bali and....ugh....sp much to tell but not so much energy left to write (couldn't get a sleep in the plain so basicly 2 unslept days for me)....

so whit what can i start....it was AMAZING...a way of enjoying things and living like that in general was smth so new to me...I mean reading, hearing about it, watching on reality shows etc...it's a complete different thing....i don't wanna get my hopes up and mess with my luck but i have to say it was AMAZING....i flt just like in a fairy tale....everything high class, expensive....the possibilities which money opens up for you...how differently people treat you etc...but as for the SD himself....i was pleasantly surprised...not only wouldn't i give him even near 54 but his personality is so so charming as well...this could work out really really good....BUT although at first i thought it was good that money, arrangements, SA etc hadn't been mentioned even once during our holiday but now when i sum up everything i start to think that he is more into a real relationship where he will just treat me whit trips, gifts etc but not actually provide an allowance every month which i desperately need...oh well, we'll see....

ok i know it's not much but i really need some beauty/energy sleep and i'll write more tomorrow and also there will be an about my australian guy because i remembered that i actually have never introduced him properly...

xo
Chelsea

"you are so unbelievably cute"....

for heaven sakes i am tired of being cute....i mean puppies, kittens - yes, they are cute...but me...ugh, it's not like i have one of those baby faces....it's more like a doll face and my porcelain white skin doesn't help as well....you might ask why i am bringing this up?....well last weekend when i went to the club three guys with whom i danced said the same thing that i am cute and others have said it previously as well, and now even my potential SD said that.....grrrr

anyway i have finally a concrete date on which i am going to meet up with McSteamy....unfortunately it's at the beginning of January....ugh so far away....anyways we agreed on meeting here in my hometown...he will be staying at the best/fanciest hotel here...mm....that says a lot - like he is what he claims to be for example....BUT he said smth that disturbs be: "I will come in the middle of the week, and stay for one night in *** hotel. Hope you will join me there...." join him?!?!? oh no buddy, if you think that i am going to "get it on" already on our first date, you are terribly wrong....so the plan is that after finding out if we even connect in real life like we do through our emails, i might join him in his room for a drink or so if everything goes well, but nothing more....a real relationship or a SD/SB relationship but sex on the first date is a NO for me...I mean look at it as you want but in my opinion if you let him have you on the first date, you sort of loose the respect and power which you would have if you wouldn't let him get you so easily...don't get it wrong...i am not into games but still...i have my principles or rules as you might call them...

as for the other potentials....hm actually there hasn't been much of an activity so i will tell more when there actually is what to tell about...:p

so for now....bye bye from the "cute rebel".....hm i think i actually might like this nick...heh