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so I've reached the 1111 mark at SA with 96 SDs who have contacted me and 33 who have favor listed me....and this is exactly where i will finish my journey as a sugar baby...my search has longed proximately 6 months and well I've experienced some really great dates and trips(to Bali and Oslo), have received some really great gifts(iphone and money) as well as have had some big disappointments and bad luck but at the end of the day I've decided that I'm just not suited for this....I want to learn/explore/achieve everything in life with my own work/skills/money etc....

I recently decided that although I will continue my studies at the university(now only as a part time student), I will also start to work...I want to work as a flight attendant...it's something I've always wanted to do but, just because of everybody else who told be that it's not a proper job with no career options etc, I never allowed myself to really seriously consider it...but now I've had enough of it...enough of living my life as everybody expects me to...it's my life and I'll decided what to do with it....and I want to work as a flight attendant...I have an interview with this big EU airline soon and I hope everything goes well and my dream will finally come true...wish me luck :))

Ofcourse when I think about all those things which i could get and experience much more easily by finding myself an SD, I get a little melancholic....but nevertheless it's just not the right thing for me..it didn't really work for me...I am thankful to those SBs who helped me to get around all of this at the beginning and I really love our sugar community which has grown quite fast especially recently...I hope you all will succeed and fulfill your wishes, dreams and goals...I wish all the best to you girls and I just want to say that all of you are really sweet and honest despite what the outside world thinks of this kind of things...I am glad I could be a part of it at least for a while....


xo
Chelsea aka Cute rebel

update*

well i haven't updated in quite a while....so here it is....couple weeks ago i was nearing the deadline for the payment of the second half of my tuition fee...frankly i didn't have that kind of money so i asked my Australian SD/boyfriend for a financial aid and guess what he answered...i don't feel comfortable plainly sending you money....i read that message when i had just come home after a party and i was so furious that i mainly wrote him to go to hell (well i was quite drunk and that's why maybe a little too rude) but still...i don't need no ime wasters....

as for McSteamy....he has returned to his ex wife...just great...so i was so pissed of that for a few weeks i thought that that is it...i am done with the sugar thing....buut fortunately i didn't delete my profiles on the sd sites...afterwards i calmed down and decided that i won't allow some problems get me down from the track...i know that i will find my perfect SD....



as for right now...well i have a few potentials but i really don't wanna jinx it so for now i am not writing about them...(yeah, i've become a little superstitious lol)


hope everyone's doing better than me...i am trying to catch up with the other blogs which i am following so have lots of reading ahead...so anyway bye for ;)


xo
cute rebel

my vacation in Bali......

 first of all i think i should tell more about my australian guy....so i met him on SA during the winter holidays which is why i never posted about him(i didn't post at all at that time)....he is 54, owns his own private clinic...once in a while he does operations but mainly now he just enjoys life...he is a passionate surfer and tennis player which is why he is in a really good shape...he has a fun personality but, as i learned during our holidays together, he can be very demanding, picky and high maintenance...which is ok with me...he can afford to be...

anyway now about the trip itself...the flight was terribly looooooong......including transfer time, 23 hours....so when i arrived at the airport of Bali, my feet were swollen twice as big, my hair was messy and my make up....well there was none lol....thank god his plain landed one hour later so i had time to freshen up...anyways since the moment i met him and all the time through our holidays in Bali i felt so comfortable with him...i mean there was no awkwardness or anything like that for that matter...we were staying at the Grand Hyatt hotel of Bali, a ocean view room and a special club wing of the hotel for the most special hotel's guests lol...
for me it was unreal...to be treated like a movie star all the time, everybody from the staff trying to read and fulfill any of my wishes....going to the finest restaurants and ordering the best dishes without looking at prices and just everything together mmmmmm....most of the days we spent by just relaxing at the beach or hotel's pool and then later go out to a restaurant....although we did have one tourist like day which he organized for me to see the island in all it's beauty and then there was the SPA day(loved it) and not the mention the surfing day where he hired a surf instructor to teach me surf....aaand i actually did learn it, of course i am not a professional but i can stand up and ride a wave straight forward....one day when he went surfing he gave me his credit card and told me to go and shop a little so that i won't be bored while he's away...and hoooow did i shop....mmm....there was this place near our hotel called Bali Collections where were all the brand shops...mmm....i felt like in sugar heaven but it was my first time so i didn't buy that much....just the perfume of Gucci "envy me", a dress and jeans from D&G and finally a white gold watch(apart from bags, watches are my weaknesses)

we never spoke of anything related to SA and arrangements etc...it was just like a couple on their honeymoon vacation lol (he joked about that once)....so that's what concerns me a little....is he my SD? i can't answer that question because i am not sure if he sees it like that...i think he might be into getting a real girlfriend rather than a SB...well i can give him the GFE but i have my needs as well...like an allowance for example?! i dunno....we need to have a conversation about this but i don't know how to start....ugh....

ok this is getting pretty long so i think that's enough for once....so if you girls could give me some advices, share your experience etc about how to start the arrangement conversation after a while even if you already had had it with him before....

xoxo
Chelsea...the cute rebel ;)

P.S. did you know that the 3rd season of the secret diary of a call girl has started?!...i love that show!!!

Bali.......

so I am back from Bali and....ugh....sp much to tell but not so much energy left to write (couldn't get a sleep in the plain so basicly 2 unslept days for me)....

so whit what can i start....it was AMAZING...a way of enjoying things and living like that in general was smth so new to me...I mean reading, hearing about it, watching on reality shows etc...it's a complete different thing....i don't wanna get my hopes up and mess with my luck but i have to say it was AMAZING....i flt just like in a fairy tale....everything high class, expensive....the possibilities which money opens up for you...how differently people treat you etc...but as for the SD himself....i was pleasantly surprised...not only wouldn't i give him even near 54 but his personality is so so charming as well...this could work out really really good....BUT although at first i thought it was good that money, arrangements, SA etc hadn't been mentioned even once during our holiday but now when i sum up everything i start to think that he is more into a real relationship where he will just treat me whit trips, gifts etc but not actually provide an allowance every month which i desperately need...oh well, we'll see....

ok i know it's not much but i really need some beauty/energy sleep and i'll write more tomorrow and also there will be an about my australian guy because i remembered that i actually have never introduced him properly...

xo
Chelsea

bye for 10 days...

so tomorrow morning I am off to Bali....a 22 h long flight...ok ok...since it's 1st class i think i'll survive lol...anyway we arranged to meet at the airport and go through the immigration together since there have to be shown papers of the hotel which you are staying at etc....i went on a shopping spree yesterday and spent all my money on clothes and two pairs of shoes...all for him so he better be satisfied and compensate it...but 8ays together....i usually get tired of even some people who are quite close to me after this amount of time...well we'll see...if this will work out good i think he could be my constant money daddy...because i want to get my own apartment in the center so that means an allowance..........anyway i will give an update how it went as soon as i will get back home whether with good or bad news....(i really hope that with good ones)

as for McSteamy....well he wrote me an email that he really enjoyed our short time together and is eager to meet up again ASAP to (and i quote)"repeat or try to have an even more amazing weekend together if that is even possible".....well sure, i wrote him that this time we could go to some other country for the weekend...as he is not a money daddy but more of a gift daddy then he can at least give me some traveling experinces and hopefully get me the things which i mentioned him last week(apple ipod, laptop and a camera)...

then there is this other guy which i met on sd4me.com and he is married, over 50 and with a big income as well...but after we exchanged couple of messages and emails he already deleted his account on sd4me saying that he thinks i am the one and he doesn't have to look for an sb anymore...oookeey....that's a little too fast for my taste but ok, we'll see...he can come here to meet me for a weekend in Febryary

and here is my dilemma...which weekend for which SD and most importantly which SD will get the Valentine's day's weekend??????i of course will await gifts from all of them but which will be the one i actually spend Valentine's day with....who knows..


so i guess i'll have to catch up a lot when i come back from my trip...anyway wish me luck(i hope i won't need it though) and bye bye sugars...till the 31st January

i am back with lots of sugar

i know i haven't written anything since Christmas...the thing is that I was really busy with writing my curse paper, going to gym etc....

so there are huge changes in my sugar life....on this Thursday i met up with McSteamy and well at least i think it went great....so when he landed here he gave me a call and we agreed to meet in his hotel's lobby(have to admit i felt a little bit like a call girl or smth like that remembering the show "secret diary of a call girl" with a scene where she walks in a hotel and waits for her client in the lobby).... so the thing is that he arrived very late...proximately around 11 pm so there almost no decent restaurant open so first we went to the hotel's bar to drink smth warm because i was freezing to death...believe me you would be to if you had walked in a mini dress and high heels with a thin layer of what looked like a coat but definitely isn't doing the functions that it is supposed to....anyway he acted very chivalrous and took my hands in his and warmed them up and then he gives me this shopping bag saying that it is a late Christmas present and what do i see inside...CHANEL...my first Chanel dress yey....so then we wanted to go to the hotel's restaurant but as it was inside the hotel's casino and i being smart as always hadn't taken with me my passport, so we couldn't get in but there was an option to order from the restaurant to the room and so we did....first i was quite anxious about going to his room and so but all the time he gave me this respectful feeling that he wouldn't do anything that i wouldn't be up to....so while we were waiting for our order to arrive, he opened a bottle of red wine(for courage i had drunken 2 glasses of wine beforehand lol)and i to have say it was so easy to talk to him...i really enjoyed our conversations...he is a psychiatrist and at first i thought that he will be like all listening and letting me talk and analyzing me etc but nothing like that...i of course had ordered one of the most expensive dishes...well i love Japanese kitchen and have tried lots of dishes but never anything from the expensive ones...after we enjoyed our meal he opened a bottle of champagne and not that i was drunk but i was already in the everything's great faze....so it was somewhere around 3 am and he offered me to stay over...i was about to say no but he said that as there are two beds(the room where he stayed was so impressive and huge)we would sleep separately..no obligations...well probably because of the good amount of alcohol in my organism i agreed...he gave me his shirt as a pj and although i usually find it difficult to fall asleep or really relax while sleeping elsewhere than my own bed, to my surprise in the morning i felt really relaxed...he ordered breakfast to the room and i enjoyed it in my bed as he was playing the waiter (he played his role perfectly and it was so hilarious but great as well)...his flight home left at 7 pm so we had quite a lot of time left...so he gave me 30$ for the cab to go home to change and then come back...so i did...i wore this time jeans with a sexy white sweater and this time a thicker coat which went well together with my high heel winter boots and jeans....so we met up in the old town part...did a little sightseeing and he is such a perfect gentleman...he held me by my waste when we crossed the streets because the road was quite slippery and walking in high heels made it all quite dangerous lol...anyway we went to one of the nicest restaurants there to have lunch and there happened the funniest thing, the waiter who was really really hot(note to myself - have to go to the restaurant again but this time alone if you know where i am aiming at)and the water started to flirt with me, in front of McSteamy lol...the waiter probably thought that he was like my father or something (he is in his mid 30's and looks fit but age gap was quite easy to be seen) and then i brought up the topic of my wish list which includes an iPhone, new laptop and a camera, i am sure that next time i will definitely get the iPhone, dunno about the other things though...after lunch we went to the art gallery(turns out he is a fan of art just like i am) and after that we went back to the hotel, drank coffee and it was time for him to get going unless he wanted to miss his flight...we parted with a kiss...have to admit he is a great kisser and it all seemed so natural...then he gave me money for the taxi which turned out to be two 100$ bills...then we agreed on talking later and he said he can't wait for our next meeting....yey :)

i know i somehow described it very long in every detail but i am just so super excited....my first meeting and it went so good...

oh but i haven't told you about what awaits me one the 21st of January.....this little sugar baby is going to Bali....yes Yes YES!...it's a treat from a new potential SD which i met only in the end of the year...he is from Australia, 54 and a has a really high net worth...once i told him that the weather here is so so cold and i am tired of the snow...then he said ok then let's go to Bali...that simple...and i thought a little about it and thought oh what the hell and agreed...so ok, it takes 22 hours to go to Bali from here but as I will be sitting in the first class i think I'll survive lol... :D so i am leaving on the 21st and will be back on the 31st...he loves to surf and told me that he will get me a teacher so that i could learn it as well...well that would be great...imagine me saying someday "oh yeah i can surf...i learned it in Bali..." lol...so the extra 200$ from McSteamy will come quite handy for preparations for the trip...
there are other new potential ones but nothing worth mentioning yet...

so i hope this year has started good for all the sugar babies and there will be lots of sugar for every one of us :)

xo
Chelsea(cute rebel)